It [hurts] you but it [scars] me

[Lunar]

She looked over the shear drop. A look of disgust crossed he face. "Baka...tom!" she growled the other word she used for stupid. Her eyes gleamed, their yellow orbs in narrowed slits. The tom she once called father made her into a fool; a murderer! Her black fur was once smooth, but now stuck out as she bristled. She glared into the whole. Her father had told her to push the other cat in there when she was young, because that tom had to so he could get something for their master. She had worked hard, trying to be loyal. But he father messed everything up for her. "It must hurt him to see me so hateful towards him..." she mused aloud. Her pelt shook about "Kuso!" she spat the word out "But the past he caused me scars me..it nearly kills" why her? Why couldn't she just die then?

[Raven]

Raven walked up to her a put his tail on her shoulder. "Come on now, Moon, it was the past. Why not just forget about it and deal with life now."

[Lunar]

She whipped around, her black pelt glowing in the moonlight as she did. Her eyes gleamed and she rippled a snarl. Her reply came out in a choppy hiss "Past? Just the past? And lets say a cat claws your eye out! Will you say it's just a scar? How about don't worry, you are only blind? My past kills me and puts scars on my heart. It blinds me to the good and faults to my life!" her tail lashed in anger. What was she doing, talking to her master like that? Her eyes closed and she dipped her head. "I'm sorry. I cannot forgive myself for what I have done. My father fooled me. It's my fault...I shouldn't have listened. I killed that cat, Raven, I killed him. He's not coming back. I'm like a theif in the lusting night...I stole his life! How could any cat forgive me? How could you make me your deputy when I'm foolish enough to let a cat trick me into murder?" the she-cat pressed herself against a rock she lay on as a chilling wind tugged violently against her fur. 'Not coming back, Not coming back...he's dead you murderer! Kuso Moon, he is dead! Dead I tell you!' her mind screemed at her. She flattend her ears with pain and sorrow, her yellow narrowed eyes filling with grief.

[Raven]

Raven sighed. He was trying all he could to make her forget about it, but it just didn't work. "I made you deputy, Moon, because you're a great warrior and your past will never change that. I understand that you can't forget it, but try to be in this world not the past. Now is where you are not in the past. You're a great cat and warrior. Now come on, I think you just need some rest."

[Lunr]

She shook. Her eyes filling with grief. "You do not fear of me, of me possibly killing another cat. The fear I feel every second that I still breathe." she didn't ask it, she said it with no emotion in her voice. "Past or no past, it still happend. The cat is dead. It's not something you can erase." she went on "Strong? Yes, I may be on the outside. I consider myself very good in case in battle. But inside I'm weak, hardly able to stand. Fear...oh Raven, all the fear inside. It's making me weaker each second I live in this darkness." she meowed, looking at the sky.

[Raven]

Raven sighed. "I understand everything." He meows. "Of course it would do that, but don't forget that you showed your loyalty over and over again." He sighs again. "If I'm the only one that believes that you can do anything even if your fast hurts you, I'm afraid I can't do anything about that."

[Lunr]

She nodded her head. "I know you understand. But even if the whole world were to understand, it still hurts. I made an innocent cat lose his life for nothing. Why would all of my good make up for that huge bad?" she dipped her head, not letting him answer "It hurts to think of all of it, no matter how hard I try to forget. The memory always comes back" her eyes closed. She felt like wailing out like a kit. Why must Raven see her like this?

[Raven]

Raven put his tail on her shoulder. He nodded to her. "I will do that." He meows and starts to walk away hoping that Moon will come back to camp soon.

[Lunr]

Moon looked up. She didn't want Raven to go for some odd reason. Her paws made her get up and follow him. She nearly stopped when she whisperd "Don't go, please..." the she-cat didn't mean to say it. But she did, it slipped. She guessed it was only because he was the only one who understood the past she beared...understood her. "Please stay"

[Raven]

Raven turned around and sighed. "Alright, I'll stay." He walked back to the drop and sat down, looking out and over the drop.

[Lunar]

She looked over the edge into the shear drop. The black she-cat imagined what it would be like for her to fall down there; plumeting into the darkness and death. Moon shivered as she pressed her fur against Raven's. She didn't know what death felt like. She didn't want to find out any time soon either.

[Raven]

Raven looked at Moon and put his tail around her. He then looked back down at the drop. He didn't shiver, but he remembered how close he had come to falling over the drop when he was just an apprentice.

[m00n]

( blah I'm too lazy to get on the laptop :3 )

Moon felt a little better that he was there, trying to calm her. It was a beautiful night. The moon didn't seem to scream at her, scream for death and pain. Insted it was pure brillant white. It's sides tinted with a glowing silver. Her heart, which was once pounding very fast, was now a clam rythemic beat. Her mouth lifted into a tiny smile. His warm, sweet sent waft around her. Why did she feel her happiest around him?

[Raven]

Raven sighed as he looked up at the moon. He looked at Moon again. Raven could tell she was feeling a lot better, but he didn't say a thing about. He just sat there looked back at the moon.

[Lunar]

She looked at the moon. It still had it's ivory shade. It's sides still tinted with the silver glow. Her yellow eyes travled longingly, for a weird reason, at Raven. Why did her heart skip a beat? Why did the after beats pound in her heart? Was she..no, she couldn't be! Was she...in love?